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Ukube kwakungekho uMgqibelo, lapho ukudansa bekulula kangaka ezinsweni zami, iwayini linambitheka kamnandi futhi ubhiya ungiqabula ngokumangazayo. Ukube bengingenawo umuzwa wokukhumbula ngekhanda umbhalo waleyo ngoma, kungakhathalekile ukuthi uluphi ulimi, futhi ngihumushe kahle kakhulu.
Ukube konke lokhu bekungekho lo Mgqibelo, ngabe-ke ngabe sengivukile ngeSonto, ngabe senza isidlo sasekuseni bese ngihamba nomndeni wami engadini siyokujabulela imisebe yelanga yokuqala yasentwasahlobo.
Ngeshwa. Ikakhulu laba bangicishe bangibangela ukungaboni ngamehlo unomphela. Noma iyiphi inyoni eyayicula ngentwasahlobo esondele, ngombono wami, ikwenzile kakhulu. Umoya ovunguzayo wasentwasahlobo wadonsa izimpande zezinwele zami futhi imilenze yami yenqaba ngokuphelele i-oda lami lokuma. Ngangiqhele ngamakhilomitha amaningi ukusuka ekuhlanganyeleni okunobunye kwezitho zami zangaphakathi, futhi wonke umusho engingawukhulumanga, futhi yonke imibuzo engangingafanele ngiyiphendule, yakha injabulo encane emzimbeni wami owonakele.
Ngadakwa ngosuku olwedlule. Ngenhlanhla okuhlukile, kodwa angikaze ngikukhiphe. Eminyakeni engu-20 ngangizovele ngizihlekise ukube ngangilele embhedeni egumbini elimnyama amehlo ami avale. Ngaleso sikhathi, ngacabanga ngathi: "Ukufa kungaba yinto eyehlukile."
Kungani bekungekho okulungiswa ngosuku olwedlule lapho upenda khona isithombe esivumelana samahora alandelayo, wakholisa ingqondo yakho futhi aphoqa izindebe zakho ukuba zi-ode amanzi, lapho wazi ukuthi uzozisola kakhulu ngosuku olulandelayo?
Ngoba kungukujaha. Ijubane lokudakwa elikukhuthaza. Ngubani okwenza unganqotshwa. Ngubani owenza ukuthi ukhulume zonke izilimi. Ngubani okwazi ukwanga amadoda ngenhliziyo. Ubungane bephakade buyathembisa. Uguqula umgqomo onamanzi ube yibhola. Ngubani oshukumisa umqondo wokusindisa umhlaba kusuka emkhombeni. Ngubani oguqula isilokazana esincane, esibhidlikayo, sokuhlala isikhathi eside sodwa, isikhonzi esinezinyawo ezigogekile sibe yimodeli. Lokho kukuhlekisa ngaphambi kokukhala.
Isimo esiphuthumayo esikuvumela ukuthi wazi ukuthi yini okunye okukuwe, noma ngabe ungayazi ngosuku olulandelayo. Akudingeki njalo ukuba notshwala. Ungayibhema nayo. Ngenhlanhla, ngingamelana ngokuphelele nokuyenga kabili ngaphandle komqondo omncane wokuphuthelwa okuthile. Ikakhulu embhedeni ngabona.
"Ukuxilongwa kungaba kakhulu. Kungaba ugqozi olungakholeki lwencwadi enhle kanye nengxoxo yokuhlenga eyakha amandla angenakucatshangwa kuwe noma ikunikeze umuzwa wokukhululeka. Ukudakwa ngesibonakaliso esifanele kungagqugquzela umhlaba, kepha bobabili bahlala bekuthi. "
I-intoxication ingaba kakhulu. Kungaba ugqozi olungakholeki lwencwadi enhle kanye nengxoxo yokuhlenga eyakha amandla angenakucatshangwa kuwe noma ikunikeze umuzwa wokukhululeka. Ukudakwa ngesibonakaliso esifanele kungagqugquzela umhlaba, kepha womabili uhlala kithi.
Uma indoda ethukuthele ilawula ukufutheka kwayo, izobona ukuthi yenza okuthile okuhle ngomzamo ofanayo futhi nemikhuba iphendukela phezulu.
IStammtisch inombono ngesizathu esihle futhi ihlukane nabo bonke amagqubu abaphethe, umbuso, abamele wona, umphathi kanye nalo lonke izwe elixakile, njengabantu abanomqondo osendleleni ukufakazela ukuthi ukuphela kwakhe kuyena ukuthatha isandla futhi ngaleyo ndlela uzizwe enenkululeko yenkululeko yokuthi ubani owayekhona engayazi kuze kube manje.
"Umuntu ukufakazele endabeni yakhe kaningi ukuthi kuyini kuye, kepha ngicabanga ukuthi, kulamatshe amakhulu ngempela adinga ukushesha."
Ifilimu elithi "Kusasa" libonisa kahle kakhulu, okuphuma lapho wenza ubuhle ngenxa yesidingo futhi uqaphela ukuthi kukhona amathuba angacatshangiwe ngokuzumayo. Umuntu ukufakazele endabeni yakhe kaningi ukuthi kuyini kuye, kepha ngicabanga ukuthi, kulawo amakhulu amakhulu edinga ukudakwa ”.
Udinga umvubukuli ongakhathali, okholelwa ngokuqinile ekutholeni elinye itshe lobuciko bakhe. Umdilili, okholelwa ngokuqinile ekukhuliseni umcebo, kanye nomqhubi, ezwa ukuthi kulele phakathi kwezinduku, ufuna ukukhipha izinsimbi zabaculi bakhe. Ukudakwa umuzwa omuhle kakhulu. Asikho isidingo sotshwala noma izidakamizwa.
Inokuthile okuncane kokuphupha, ngomgomo wokwenza okuthile okukhulu. Zinike izikhathi lapho sinomuzwa wokuthi zihambisana nathi amandla amangalisayo.
Photo / Video: UGary Milano.
