Gery Seidl
Njengoko ndikhula, ndiye ndiqonde ukuba iminyaka ihamba njani kwilizwe. "Abantwana babukele ixesha lihamba," sitsho njalo, kwanyanzeleka ukuba ndiyeke umzuzwana emva kokuthetha isivakalisi okokuqala. Kubantwana ungayibona. Kwisipili. Ngaba le mibimbi? Kwaye ukuba kunjalo, ngaba bayahleka okanye ziintambo zokukhathazeka? Yimigca yokuhleka. Liphi ithamsanqa. Ngamahlaya aphumeleleyo.
"Ndingubani na endinokubulela yena ngokuzalwa kweli bandla?"
Ndihlala ndizinika ixesha lokucinga ukuba ndiphi ngoku. Eluntwini, kwisicwangciso sobomi bam, ukuba nje ungaceba ubomi, apho indlela yam kufuneka indikhokele. Amawaka eengcinga. Ixesha lokwenza into oyifundileyo. Iingcamango kunye namava abanye. Ndinjani, banjani abanye kwaye ndivunyelwe ngubani ukubulela ngokuzalwa kule meko yobumnandi? Ngakumbi nangaphezulu, ndizama ukuqonda umxholo omkhulu emva kwento eyenzekayo macala ngam.
Kutheni kusenzeka into? Ngoobani abaphumeleleyo? Kutheni kukho imisinga eluntwini elawula ngabom izinto ezithile ngeendlela ezenzakalisa abantu? Abo baqhubela inzuzo yabo, becinga ukuba bangaphezulu "eluntwini", amandla phezu kwezidumbu. UKarl Valentin wayekhe wathi: "Umntu ulungile ngokwendalo, ngabantu kuphela abanabukrwada." Ukuba sicinga ukuba umntu osandula ukuzalwa ulungile ngokwendalo, ke loo nto kufanele ukuba luluntu olwamenza ukuba abe njalo mayibe njalo, njengoko injalo ekugqibeleni. Kuba sonke singabantu, kukwathe nam ukuba "ndinetyala" kwizinto ezininzi eziphuma ezandleni. Akukho ngongoma yokubonisa umnwe wakho kwabanye ngaphandle kokuba uwenzile umsebenzi wesikolo owenzelwa ekhaya. Kungenxa yoko le nto ndizama ukuqala ngam ukufumanisa ukuba kutheni ndinje. Ukuba ngumzali, amava, amaxesha okuphumelela kunye nokusilela kundenze ukuba ndingubani namhlanje. Ndiyazi nini yonke into? Ndingatsho nini ukuba ndigqibile?
"U-Karl Valentin wayekhe wathi: Indoda ilungile ngokwemvelo, kuphela ngabantu abanenkohliso."
Ukulungele? Akunjalo! Ndisendleleni, kodwa umntu uye wandidibanisa, ngoku undibuza imibuzo emininzi, ekucingeni ukuba kufuneka ndiyazi, ngokuchanekileyo kuba ndingutata kwaye uyazi yonke into. Ngamanye amaxesha ndimi phambi kwentombi yam kwaye ndicinge ngokuchaseneyo. Ndihlala ndicinga ukuba, "Ndixelele, kuba usakhululekile ngokupheleleyo ekucingeni kwakho." Ukuhlaziyeka ukusondela kwinto ngaphandle kokukhetha, bubugcisa. Abantwana baphanda kuba benomnqweno wokufumana. Iziva njani inhlama yekhekhe ngaphambi kokuba ityalwe kumbhobho kwaye, xa ubeka izandla ezimbini kuyo kwaye njani, xa uhamba neenwele ukuya kumakhethini ukwenza intlama? Inkqubo yophando ehlanganisiweyo. Abantwana bafuna ukwazi yonke into. Kwaye buza kwaye ubuze kwaye ubuze. Kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ndizifumana ndingamameli ngononophelo. Kuba imibuzo emininzi ayingeni kwishedyuli yam. Uninzi lweefilosofi ezaziphila ngaphambi kwethu zazishiya imibuzo emininzi kuneempendulo. Ndicinga ukuba sisitshixo sehlabathi elingcono.
KUTHENI? Ndicinga ukuba ngalo mbuzo ubuncinci isiqingatha sazo zonke iiprojekthi sinokuthunyelwa ekuqaleni, ukuba impendulo ayikho: "Ngenxa yokuba ilungile kuthi sonke." Asikuthinteli ukwakhiwa kweemoto, ezixhaswe yi-hydrogen. kuba kulungile kuthi sonke. Ukugubungela umngcipheko wezemali kunye nokuthintela imfundo akulunganga kuthi sonke. Imveliso yamayeza, ethintela izifo ukuthengisa iimveliso, ayisoloko isithanda sonke. Kwanesizwe esihlanganisa imfazwe ukuze sithengise izixhobo. Ngokungapheliyo unokuqhubeka noluhlu kwaye ekugqibeleni ube ugcono phantsi koxanduva lwalo. Abakhanyisi bexesha lethu banokucula ingoma yabo. Emva kwazo zonke iinyani abazibeka etafileni, konke okwenzekayo kukuzalisa ngokukhawuleza abo bantu bangathandekiyo ngokukhawuleza. Iziphumo zomsebenzi wabo wokuchazwa azithathelwa ngqalelo. Akukho ziphumo zetyala. Kodwa oko akuthethi ukuba yonke into kufuneka ihlale injalo. Masenze uluntu oluvuthiweyo!
Kwiqonga kukho ezintathu "W" ezintathu. Ndingubani? Ndiphi Ndiyintoni? Kodwa ekugqibeleni kukho ezi "W" zontathu azikho kuphela kwiqonga, kodwa nakubomi bokwenyani. UMax Reinhard uthe: "Ithiyetha ayisiyo nguqu, kodwa sisityhilelo." Ithiyetha yindawo ekhuselweyo umntu anokuzivavanya kuyo. Kukho igumbi elinjalo ngaphandle kwakhona, ubuncinci kufanele ukuba kulapho kubantwana bethu. Esi sithuba sikhuselweyo kufuneka ikakhulu sibe lusapho kwaye emva koko sisikolo. Intsapho ifanele ukuba yichweba apho ungabaleka khona xa ulwandle luthe rhabaxa. Nantsi yonke imibuzo evunyelweyo. Usapho yindawo oyithandayo kuba uyindlela oyiyo. Intsapho kunye nabahlobo abalungileyo. Abahlobo abalungileyo, ukuba unethamsanqa, bambalwa abantu abakuthanda - nangona bekwazi. Ndikwindawo yokuthamsanqa ukuba nobabini. Ngelishwa, ayingabo bonke abanokubanga loo nto kwaye ngenxa yoko ndibona isikolo njengetha lokhuseleko kubantwana bethu.
Mhlawumbi le mbono iliso elincinci eliluhlaza okwesibhakabhaka, kodwa ifanekisela eyona nto ilungileyo kum ukuba sifuna ukuba uluntu kwixesha elizayo elijongana ngabom ngezixhobo zesizukulwana esilandelayo, ukuba sifuna ukuba noluntu apho siphathana ngentlonipho kunye nembeko Ukuhlonela kwaye ukuba olu ncedo ekugqibeleni lubonakalisiwe kwezopolitiko. Ke kuyavakala kum ukuba ndidibane nabantu abanembono eyahlukileyo kwinto enye neyam. Yamkela iindlela ezintsha. Kuyavakala kum ukuba ndizame izinto. Konke kulula ukuba unayo inetha eza kukubambisa ukuba ikho imfuneko. Kwaye ke iyavakala kum ukuba ndijikeleze iwebhu yethu kunye ukuze abo bangakayazi le mvakalelo banokubanjwa.
Ukuba kwiindawo ezininzi abantu bahlala kwi-levers engacingi ukuba bububi obukhoyo, kodwa akufuneki basiyekise kwaye bangasiphosi isibindi sokukwenza ngokwahlukileyo namhlanje. Ixesha lethu lisecaleni lethu ukuba asibakhubekisi abantwana bethu, iidayimani zethu ezingafakwanga, kodwa mabakhanye. Emva koko umhlaba uya kukhanya ngobuqaqawuli obutsha.
Enkosi kuwe. Ndijonge phambili.
Photo / Ividiyo: UGary Milano.
